Anonymous submission looking for guidance:
I recieved the following anonymous submission from a fellow tumblr blogger:
“I’m 20, and I have been bulimic since I was 13. The only difference in me my family has noticed in the past seven years is that I’ve become extremely withdrawn . No one knows about my eating disorder, which just makes me think it isn’t working. I am so alone, isolated inside the emotional incubator that is my illness. I’ve been cutting on my hips since I was 17, and yesterday, for the first time, I cut on my forearm, where it is totally visible. IM JUST GETTING WORSE AND WORSE! I think I finally want someone to notice. Help.”
Thank you for your bravery and willingness to share your story. I’m so sorry that the past seven years have been so incredibly difficult for you, especially since you’ve truly had to pave through them on your own. As much as cutting on your forearm yesterday may seem like a major setback to you, it is AMAZING that you yourself have detected one of the reasons behind it: you want to be noticed. Even though you may be in a hurry now to dig yourself out of this hole, remember, you’ve been digging for 7 years, and unfortunately healing is a process that will take time. Take it slow. Try not to feel shame for wanting someone to notice, but instead, really try to delve into that feeling and figure out why it’s there. It doesn’t necissarily mean that you want/are ready for help, so try not to feel guilty or shameful about that concept. You are opening the door to a journey to a new way of living, and no one is expecting you to step through just yet.
Anyway, that’s just my two cents.
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